kalepa ta kala

Gumption and Grace

2011-09-30T00:31:00.003-07:00

30 April 2011 I've been scared lately to face my goals. To write, sing, create. I'm scared of hitting more obstacles and falling short. I'm tired of falling short. I told myself for so many years that I can fight through anything. I have believed that if I desired to accomplish things that would please God, He would lift me through until they happened. Reality has hit me in the face

Look Up, Look Out

2009-04-21T20:44:00.004-07:00

I see so much aggression and hurt and frustration. All around. All the time. I see these emotions on people as if they were sporting unsightly, unmistakable battle scars. We’re all trying so hard, lacking the capacity to see the simple—the simple that could save our hearts’ aching and striving. We look at each other every day and ask, “Why can’t you see me? Why do you look

Walking It Out

2008-09-08T23:35:00.009-07:00

I am tired. I have been going and going and going. But unlike the Energizer Bunny, I can’t keep going. I am in a job that is eating me up. I am attending classes with little inspiration. I am running on empty and it’s just the beginning of the year. But I am reminded of the simple yet easily forgotten truth that, of course, I can’t keep going. Of course, I will get tired. Of course,

Obama, Sanger, and the KKK. Oh My!

2008-08-29T23:06:00.012-07:00

Margaret Sanger was the founder of the abortion company called Planned Parenthood. Not only was she highly promiscuous, and therefore in favor of abortion as an opportunity to excuse her behavior, she was also highly racist. With a passion like Hitler, she saw abortion as a tool to exterminate a race of people. However, she recognized that by serving out half truths and lies dressed in pretty and

In case you weren't aware...

2008-08-14T20:07:00.005-07:00

You in for a shock? Check out this site below:http://www.klanparenthood.com/History_of_Abortion_Statistics/KlanParenthood

A Genuine Ache and Prayer

2008-07-20T22:00:00.009-07:00

I go to write once again and am again found unfit for my own hopes and aims. I have yet so much to learn in this life. There is so much to do and so many people to help. When I look around and see that I am still here, I feel afraid that I will never fulfill all that I feel called to do. What I know needs to be done always surpasses what I know how to do. And that reality seems never to

Calling Must Endure

2008-07-12T18:30:00.009-07:00

"Must life get hard, must friends get few, must the years get by before we realize that His presence alone is our only source of lasting joy and protection?"~ Lawrence Kimbrough"Suffering and success go together. If you are succeeding without suffering, it is because others have suffered before you. If you are suffering without succeeding, it is so that others after you may succeed."~ Adoniram

2008-06-09T19:36:00.003-07:00

"It is a foolish and timid, no less than a wicked, thing to blink out the fact that the forces of evil are strong, but it is even worse to fail to take into account the strength of the forces that tell for good."~ Theodore Roosevelt, "The Man with the Muck-Rake"

The Cattle on a Thousand Hills

2008-05-27T11:54:00.001-07:00

"There is not one square inch in the whole realm of human existence over which Christ who is sovereign over all does not say, 'Mine! It is mine!'"~ Abraham Kuyper

Sincerely

2008-05-23T23:53:00.007-07:00

Maria Sue Chapman, 2003-2008 I am always astounded by the amount of hurt we as humanity are able to bare. So many times we face down the hurts of countless generations and the hurts never cease. Nor the hope for that matter. Yet when hope is painfully quiet and hurt screams in our ears, we forget the truths that we hold dear. How can anyone get back up after they've fallen? How does someone pick

"The Heroic Life" The Deadliest Monster, JF Baldwin

2008-05-18T16:16:00.012-07:00

"Being good is an adventure far more violent and daring than sailing round the world." ~Basil Grant a character invented by G.K. Chesterton"Karl Barth defines wisdom as 'the knowledge by which we may actually and practically live.' [...] And so we arrive at last at the biggest paradox: Christians, the very people who claim that man can do nothing to save himself, expect more goodness of

Lily

2008-04-17T12:05:00.007-07:00

I miss my sister!

Signs of Real Change

2008-04-17T11:59:00.004-07:00

WILLIAM GURNALL:"Christ counts it his honor, that he is a king of a willing people, and not of slaves.""Blind zeal is soon put to a shameful retreat, while holy resolution, built on fast principles, lifts its head like a rock in the midst of waves.""Love refuseth nothing that love sends.""Few are made better by prosperity, whom afflictions make worse."THOMAS BROOKS:"An idle life and a holy heart

Artsy...

2008-03-19T20:31:00.006-07:00

More artsy...

2008-03-19T20:16:00.004-07:00

Some photos of mine that I like... more to come...

2008-02-26T23:43:00.005-07:00

When...

2008-02-26T19:31:00.013-07:00

painting by Jacob Collins(This is a re-post. Light and fluffy, just for you. But the amazing thing is that no matter how long ago it was written, it is still and probably always will be applicable for my life. )When days hit hard, when moments repeat, when sleep becomes a metaphor, and when spare time translates as wasted time, we loose touch. I want to be reading more, teaching more, laughing

Muse, Butterflies and Hurricanes

2008-02-15T23:36:00.000-07:00

The Season

2007-12-22T22:23:00.003-07:00

Oftentimes we forget hope. We forget that every bad moment has its point and purpose in time. We are mesmerized by facts and uncertainties. The result is a wash of disappointment and empty wishes. To me, it looks a bit like this:I love this video, sincerely I do. Radiohead produces some of the best music that you could ever plug into your ears. But they only show half the picture. They do an

Lift Up Your Hearts, by Walter Russell Bowie

2007-12-03T10:02:00.001-07:00

PoiseAlmighty and everlasting God, Lord of lords and Light of light, who art revealed in the unfathomable heavens and in the quiet of hurried stars. Let our restlessness find rest in thee. May our wills become obedient to thy greater will, so that we may move, as the stars move, in the orbit of eternity; and without confusion and without haste, but with shining steadfastness, go on our appointed

Prone to Wander, Chris Rice

2007-11-18T10:33:00.001-07:00

On the surface not a rippleUndercurrent wages warQuiet in the sanctuarySin is crouching at my doorHow can I be so prone to wanderSo prone to leave YouSo prone to dieAnd how can You be so full of mercyYou race to meet me and bring me back to lifeI wake to find my soul in fragmentsGiven to a thousand lovesBut only One will have no rivalHangs to heal me, spills His bloodHow can I be so prone to

Hall’s Characters of Virtues and Vices

2007-11-04T14:45:00.000-07:00

He is an happy man, that hath learned to read himself, more than all books; and hath so taken out this lesson, that he can never forget it: that knows the world, and cares not for it; that, after many traverses of thoughts, is grown to know what he may trust to; and stands now equally armed for all events: that hath got the mastery at home; so as he can cross his will without a mutiny, and so

The Virgin and St. Anne

2007-11-03T14:43:00.000-07:00

by Leonardo da Vinci

Death.

2007-11-02T11:33:00.000-07:00

~ Klimt, "Death and Life"O mortal folk, you may behold and seeHow I lie here, sometime a mighty knight;The end of joy and all prosperityIs death at last, thorough his course and might:After the day there cometh the dark night,For though the day be never so long,At last the bells ringeth to evensong.~ “An Epitaph,” by Stephen Hawes(64, Quiller-Couch)As human beings, we examine the psychology in

The Mad Farmer Liberation Front by Wendell Berry

2007-10-08T15:01:00.000-07:00

Love the quick profit, the annual raise,vacation with pay. Want moreof everything ready-made. Be afraidto know your neighbors and to die.And you will have a window in your head.Not even your future will be a mysteryany more. Your mind will be punched in a cardand shut away in a little drawer.When they want you to buy somethingthey will call you. When they want youto die for profit they will

Languages are intellectual candies.

2007-09-05T21:39:00.000-07:00

~ Emperor Charles V is reputed to have said, "I would like to address God in Spanish, women in Italian, men in French, and my horse in German."And I do think I must agree aside from a slight correction....Men get Old English. Yes, Chaucer for the men. Or should it be a deep, rich Scottish dialect? Hmmm, so much beauty in culture. And with that said, I wouldn't find a classic, sweet southerner

Controversy Report, Abortion: The Correct Response to Overpopulation in Mexico City?

2007-07-31T09:27:00.001-07:00

The Controversy Report below is a rather simplistic examination of the legalization of abortion as a response to overpopulation, specifically in Mexico City. This report is set-up in the format required by my Environmental Biology teacher. I would much rather have gone into greater depths, but according to my Biology teacher, I should not "think and do so much." In the midst of many issues I had

Kipling and Jeremiah, Today

2007-07-06T15:01:00.001-07:00

Looking in on Palmer's Rudyard KiplingThe task of the Anglo-Indian administrator is, indeed, the finest opportunity for that heroic life to the celebration of which Mr Kipling has devoted so many of his tales. This hero has a task which taxes all his ability, which promises little riches and little fame, and is known to be tolerably hopeless. It offers to him a supreme test of his virtue--a

From the dear Vander Kodde's

2007-06-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

"The men who have done the most for God in the world have been early on their knees. He who fritters away the early morning, its opportunity and freshness, in other pursuits than seeking God will make poor headway seeking Him the rest of the day. If God is not first in our thoughts and efforts in the morning, He will be in the last place the remainder of the day."E.M. Bounds"Spirit filled souls

An Impaired Worldview

2007-06-23T00:13:00.002-07:00

My summer psychology course is discussing the following prompt from the teacher: "A survey among college students indicated that 80% of male assailants and 70% of female victims were drinking before sexual assaults. In another survey of almost 90,000 students, researchers learned that alcohol or drugs were involved in 79% of unwanted sexual intercourse experiences. The fact is that most college

More than the Surface, Please

2007-04-30T14:06:00.003-07:00

Unwilled observation is soon satiated and goes to sleep. Willed observation, vision with executive force behind it, is full of discernment and is continually making discoveries which keep the mind alert and interested. Get a will behind the eye and the eye becomes a searchlight, the familiar is made to disclose undreamed treasure. –Robert Traina (Grant, 1985, p. 140)It was four in the morning. I

Accepting Monsters

2007-03-27T14:34:00.003-07:00

I wrote the following paper in an attempt to see the other side of the debate. The emails shown in the entry below concerns this assignment: to make an argument for truth, make an argument for the almost-truth, then after having covered both sides of the debate, make an argument for the arrived upon conclusion. The paper listed below, titled "Accepting Monsters," is my idea of the other side of

A Valued Conversation.

2007-03-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

I was looking back through some old work to see if I could incorporate anything from past assignments for one of my current classes. I came across an e-mail conversation I had with my honors teacher. The topic concerns relativism vs absolutism. I value this conversation not just for the praise my teacher offers (encouragment is important to him, even when occansionally it might be "forced"). The

2007-03-09T22:06:00.000-07:00

Hope has two beautiful daughters. Their names are anger and courage; anger at the way things are, and courage to see that they do not remain that way. ~ St. Augustine of HippoFaith, belief, meaning, experience, knowledge; these five terms have everything to do with each other. In the same rights, they are also completely distinctive. I must begin with the concept of truth. My experience, my faith

Defeat Monsters

2007-02-06T10:18:00.001-07:00

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Stevenson’s well-known horror story, identifies a monster that is actually lurking in the streets of the real world. In Stevenson’s tale, a well-mannered scientist named Dr. Jekyll turns himself into a monster at the swig of a potion. Once he becomes the monster, he is unaware of the monster he becomes. The monster, Mr. Hyde, is a heartless fiend

2006-11-29T09:25:00.000-07:00

“The Lie” ~ Sir Walter RaleighGo, soul, the body’s guest,Upon a thankless errand;Fear not to touch the best;The truth shall be thy warrant.Go, since I needs must die,And give the world the lie.Say to the court, it glowsAnd shines like rotten wood;Say to the church, it showsWhat’s good, and doth no good.If church and court reply,Then give them both the lie.Tell potentates, they liveActing by

2006-11-11T23:45:00.000-07:00

More Than WomenWhoever you are, wherever you are, you will be judged. Whether you are titled as some lazy man, longing his glory days or as some gangster pimp, pushing drugs or as some mindless twit, painting her nails, you will always have some stereotype uttered behind your back. Discrimination is a blind gossip who thrives on, often erroneous, face-values. Through all fields of life,

2006-11-11T23:40:00.000-07:00

TruthIf Corder is right and one’s argument equates to one’s identity, then I feel I must address my beliefs head on (3). C. S. Lewis, renowned author who went from diehard atheist to steadfast Christian, explains, rather well, the foundations of my identity and argument:All I am doing is asking people to face the facts--to understand the questions which Christianity claims to answer. And they are

2006-11-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

More Than the Surface, PleaseJohn Stossel. Known for telling it like it is. He certainly rides a high horse; but oftentimes, his opinions are waist-high in ethos, logos and pathos. On 11 March 2005, Stossel broadcast yet another Give Me a Break story, this one begging the question, “You Call That Art?” His argument is as simple and as complex as the question details. Who decides where to draw the

2006-10-30T01:21:00.000-07:00

"Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength." ~ C.H. SpurgeonMy galley is charged with challenges. I think I will always be here in this place, this place of wanting more. Always more. More books, more understandings, more writings, more artworks, more songs, more thoughts, more ideas, more kids, more people, more places, more loves. I want more of life

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

2006-10-01T10:38:00.000-07:00

The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde is an excellent look into the duality of mankind. It is a great read. I have trouble getting into books, no matter how much I wish against that fact. I'm slowly, very slowly changing. Most people know the story of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, so the anticipation of the unfolding of events is strong. Robert Louis Stevenson, author of Treasure Island, The

2006-08-23T09:07:00.000-07:00

Am I missing out? Every moment I spend in class, every minute I sleep away, every hour I spend turning book pages, I feel I am missing out. I feel as if there is some other class I ought to experiance, some other issue I was suppose to address before head-meets-pillow, some other book that deserves my attention. Even in this moment, I am stuggling to enjoy the opportunity to journal. But most

Identity: Not a Rhetorical Question

2006-06-20T21:23:00.000-07:00

Who am I? Occasionally we let people know who we are without even saying a word. We seem to carry these screaming identity tags hung around our necks. When we go from place to place, we tell a story. It’s in the way we walk, talk, laugh, think, breathe, and communicate. We say, “I am polite and shy,” or “I am good; please look at me, love me,” or “I am no one of consequence,” or “I am all that

2006-05-21T00:04:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, I will face the Wood Between the Worlds and go home. I love the airport, even though it is not nearly the same as that wonderous place that C. S. Lewis created. I love the people-watching, the continuous book-reading, the pensive silence of the plane ride, the soaring rush, the mad dash to the correct "pool," the hilariously angry neighbors, the happy stranger-made-friend, the

2006-05-13T19:10:00.000-07:00

It is my last week before my summer really begins. I can't believe it. I miss my family and friends greatly. But my heart is broken over leaving my kids. I am a teacher. Now I have to leave behind my pecious kids. Most of them I'll not see again. I knew it would happen, but I did not understand how it would feel. I'll never have another hug from Cisco, have another adventure with Sydney,

2006-04-27T09:30:00.000-07:00

When days hit hard, when moments repeat, when sleep becomes a metaphor, and when spare time translates as wasted time, we loose touch. I want to be reading more, teaching more, laughing more, living more; but every breathing moment is constricted by the tension of "what am I doing? Where am I going? And when will I get there?" I get lost in these places. I want to do so much. There is

2006-01-14T23:45:00.000-07:00

lost reality...

2006-01-14T23:27:00.000-07:00

pray

2006-01-14T23:25:00.000-07:00

dream

2006-01-14T23:22:00.000-07:00

2006-01-14T19:57:00.000-07:00

...the front yard...

2006-01-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

beauty

2006-01-12T23:30:00.000-07:00

They stole it from me! Took it from the deepest place within me, a place dark, secret and a bit forlorn. They carry it around with them day after day without a thought to the consequences. Yes, those children took my heart.I work almost full time at a daycare. I do all the same things a kindergarden teacher would do, except that I do them after regular school hours. Therefore, I am titled "